When All Your Safety Blankets Disappear

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Over the last few days I’ve been stripped of every safety blanket in my life. I got comfortable and my day job became my safety blanket. I assumed it would be there for a while  and I could keep working on building my media empire on the side. With the safety blankets gone I’m standing far on the edge of success with adversity as the catalyst, and I fear that I may fall.  For the second time in my life I’m confronted with the power of hitting rock bottom.

  • My day job will end in a few weeks and I don’t have anything lined up
  • Due to changes in their business our sponsor for BlogcastFM has been forced to end their agreement with us.
  • The growth and revenue on my personal projects isn’t quite where I want it to be and I’ve contemplated the idea of returning to cubicle nation to make ends meet.

It seems like everything that could go wrong in the last few weeks has gone wrong. It’s no secret that I have a higher than average tolerance for risk.  I’ll do crazy things like on a whim like sell everything I own and leave the country in less than a month. I’ve been known to be a bit extreme when it comes to my decisions and many of my friends call me just stubborn enough or even damn stubborn. I can’t argue with them. Once I’ve made to do something come hell or high water it’s going to happen. In some cases this has served me well and in others not so much.  At the current moment I have no idea how it’s all going to turn out and I feel like the lone traveler with  a surfboard in hand searching for for my next good wave.

On the Flip Side

A few days back I had a brief chat with Marcus Sheridan and he said something to me that really made me think. He said “I think you’ve been selling yourself short by staying at this gig at Flighster. It’s held you back, and being forced to leave it is going to move you forward.”  With a 100 degree fever and cold that was making me stir crazy, I forced myself to ask that one simple question that could make a dramatic difference. The potential outcomes for how this could all turn out all of a sudden seemed much more appealing and I’m going to stick to my mission and go the whole nine yards. There’s definitely an element of truth about what Marcus said because my greatest talents were being underutilized. I had stopped growing  in my role, and the execution of my best ideas had been tabled for quite some time.

Putting it All on the Line and Betting Big

It’s likely you’ve heard the saying the bigger the risk the bigger the reward. If you want to really find out what you’re made of I recommend you tattoo that across your forehead or put up a reminder of it somewhere so that you see it every single day.  The the other day my friend Julia asked the really important question of whether we should take a gamble or play it safe. When we play it safe we stay in our comfort zone, and no progress occurs inside the comfort zone. Half assed commitments generate half assed results.

But when you’re willing to put it all on the line that’s when amazing things happen. The post that your  terrified to push publish on is the one that we all want to read. If there wasn’t potential for it to be read by so many people than why would be so scared to write it?   My friend Farnoosh Brock understands this kind of thinking. She walked away from a six figure corporate job that allowed her to work form home because she believe in something greater.

Embracing Uncertainty

At this point I’d say it’s a safe bet that no matter how prepared you might be, a few things won’t go according to plan. After all if it was  completely predictable it wouldn’t be very interesting journey.  One thing I’ve found is that in the depths of uncertainty, some of our greatest breakthroughs occur. The beauty of an uncertain future is that it’s open for being written according to your desires. If there was no room to adjust according to the circumstances you’d be limiting your ability for peak performance. AS I’ve said before  too many plans limits your potential.

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Jason Fonceca 33 pts

I know I'm super-late to the party, but I have totally and utterly been there, Srini. I am so please to read this. Really.

I was homeless (twice!), arrested (falsely), betrayed, lost all my possessions all in one year. I 'failed' 11 businesses in my life, and despite having no safety net, and not even a friend I felt comfortable turning to, I made it through with a smile :)

Actually, I can add to this, because what happens when you're able to work without safety nets, but you have people in your life who are far too comfortable in their comfort-zones?

I am totally posting on this topic -- thanks for the inspiration!

Hi Srinavis,
I finally read this last night, and then found myself lying awake this morning at 4am, thinking more about it.
I admire your courage and willingness to be vulnerable enough with the world to write even when things are confusing or not so perfect..
Remember - you already have all the answers you need.. look within whenever you are doubting this.. they are there.
I know life is uncertain at this moment, and there is that element of fear, but what i sensed in your post the most was the excitement of "what's next?" and that is awesome. It's that excitement and courage to face risk-on that will give you the strength to keep going. Figure out what you want.. picture your perfect life, and know that that is where you are headed.. give the universe something to pull together for you. And then watch it happen.:)

Hi! Love the pictures.

Sounds as though you need to read 'Self Help for the Bleak.' Great book, halfway down this post. http://goo.gl/euN9B

-k @FitOldDog

This is exactly what I have been debating. My safety blanket of a steady income will end by December and my whole being rebels against me finding a day job just to continue having that safety blanket.
The thought of moving on with a conscious decision of NOT looking for a job is also bringing up a lot of fear. But this time I need to make that leap.
All the best to you!

You know what I've been learning over the last few days? When your back as against the wall you get creative, you do whatever the hell it takes. I know what you mean about the conscious decision of not looking for a job. I'm not sure if I've made that decision just yet, but something tells me I will be headed in that direction.

Yes, like a cornered fox. I had to get to that point with many things in my life. It helped because I tapped into a drive and survival instinct that was pure fight instead of flight, and that made all the difference.

Hey Srini,

Just shy of 4.5 years ago I made the decision at 26 years old to either re-enter the corporate ranks, after a 2.5 year departure (as I ran my own business). My business was in the real estate industry, so looking back - I'm glad I made the move back to corporate. At first I hated it...badly. But after I realized that I can make it work for me - it was all good.

But the biggest thing for me was my responsibilities. I had a family to consider, not just myself. If I was flying solo - I would have been a lot more aggressive; my responsibilities called for a more conservative approach.

Anyway, I've been there before man and I understand the stress you must feel. HOWEVER...

I have a feeling that you're on the track you're supposed to be on. I think that you've experienced all that you have for a particular reason. I think this is only a stepping stone to the next thing. I believe in what you bring to the table man and have faith in knowing that a guy like you doesn't have anything to fear.

I would wish you luck...but I think you're manufacturing your own.

Have a great week Srini!
I wish you the best as the saga continues...

JK,

The last few days and weeks have been a cross between a soul crushing and soul searching journey. They've inspired actions and made me want to throw my laptop against the wall. But as look what you've said, I realize that I'm lucky not to have any ties or responsibilities that are keeping from taking some big risks. As far as a return to the corporate side, I'm not sure if I"ll make it that far because I don't think I was meant for that. But I'm sure I could make it work if I really needed to. My dad always says "everything happens for a reason." The reasons don't seem obvious to us at the time when the biggest obstacles show up in our lives. But the dots always seem to connect in reverse.

Srinivas,

Thanks so much for sharing this uncertain time in your life. I would have to agree with the sentiment of comments that what is happening now will be best for you to move forward.

A business acquaintance of mine left his cushy hospital administrator position to start his own sales training franchise. Before he could sign on the bottom line to get started, the franchise required him to give up his healthcare consulting gig. They knew he could not really mentally move on until he had a laser like focus.

The same rang true for my small business. When I started back in 2008, I was still living off my corporate severance. I thought I was working hard, but that just wasn't the case. Once it ran out, I got serious!

Wishing you the best!

-Adam

Adam,

The sentiment of the comments has certainly been inspiring. I think back to the story of Darren Rowse and how is wife told him that he had six months to turn the blog into a real business and that's when things really started to take off. Believe it or most of what's happen has inspired actions that I haven't thought of until now. I guess it really is true that when your back is against the wall, you're left with no choice but to put your best foot forward and find out what you're really made of.

Hi Srini,
I wish and pray that you will succeed in your dreams and no need to join the 'cubicle nation'. I truly wish for your success as it will inspire and shows the way for many others like me who are just starting. By the way i just received your 2nd mail of theskool and it already triggered "Waves" of thoughts in me and soon i am planning to set these into action.

Phani,

Thanks for your support. I hope I won't be returning to Cublicle nation either. This is going to be a very tumultuous couple of months for me, but with the support of a community like the one here I feel a thousand times better. So glad that you're enjoying the Skool newsletter :)

I read an interesting quote in "One Minute Millionaire" (interesting book) that might apply:

"Problems don't drag you down. They're like the wind. You can't fly without them."

I'm sure there are a million other applicable quotes about letting go, security, etc, but I know you're already on the right track.

Big opportunities need room in our lives!

Liv,

Thank you for the reminder. This is really starting to seem like an opportunity more than trouble. It's been tough to stomach, but what people have said on this post has made me think that some interesting and exciting times lie ahead.

There is a line from the Bible that I always cling to when I'm about to take a huge leap of faith (or even a small step). In the parable where Christ discusses the 'talents' of the three workers he tells the 2 that had a good ROI this: 'You have been faithful with a few things, now I shall make you manager of many. Come and share in your Master's happiness'.

Rather than think about the risk involved I try to focus on what I have already accomplished in the days of small beginnings and remain confident that if I was trusted (by God, others, myself etc) to do the baby steps that I'll probably end up having everything I need in the next role I play in life.

I agree with your friend, it will ALL work out, just in a way that you've never even had a glimmer of it happening.

And rest assured that you won't be cast away from living the good life because you invested in your talents - only the guy in the parable that hid his talents under a rock was called evil.

Lastly, I've found it much easier to take the BIG LEAPS of faith that are exciting and bring a sense of wonder, but its the small steps of faith while you are blind-folded from the direction you're going that reveal the Truth in your heart. Take one step (like DMB says in the song 'Die Trying').

Looking forward to seeing where your journey goes!

Jessica,

It's an interesting parable you mention. Why we hide our talents under a rock is beyond me. But there are people who do it throughout their lives only to wonder why it isn't all working out. As far as big leaps, you're right that those are things that excite us and keep up us moving forward with a sense of wonder. I hope that journey will continue, entertain, inspire and inform :)

Thanks for the reply,

I think at our core we all truly fear vulnerability, so our emotions keep telling us to run and hide, when we know for a fact that it won't change a darn thing about our situation.

I commend you for taking the risk to put yourself out there everyday.

Hey Srini, just wanted to let you know that I believe in your skills man and I know your future is a very bright one. Keep your head up and make sure you believe in your skills as much as others do.

Cheers bro,

Marcus

Marcus,

Thanks so much. Coming from you that means a lot. Hopefully we'll be sharing the stage as Keynote speakers at the biggest of conferences some day :).

One of your best posts, by far. There is no fierce ego speaking in your post, it is from your heart and that's the best place of all to be. It is so human of you to admit to your mistakes, analyze the present and forge into the future with gusto... regardless of it possibly looking glum. But we all know glum is all relative; someone's glum is another one's treasure. Srini, I believe you will find treasures hidden beneath the rubble... as we all do if we look.

Julie,

Thanks for the compliment on the post. I guess writing from the heart with my sleeve on my shoulder has become my calling card. Admitting our mistakes and that we're flawed is what makes us human in my opinion. I'm not perfect and I never will be. I'll keep my eyes on the treasure beneath the rubble.

Thinking about you as you go through this. Been reading but hadn't had a chance to say anything. It ALL happens for a reason, Srini, and good things - heck, amazing things - are yet to come for you but maybe it's getting darkest just before dawn for you right now. Please let us know how we can support you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts here and I am sending you a wish to reach down and touch on your true courage and go forth and please, whatever you do, no to cubicle nation, but if you choose it, I will understand and support you.

Farnoosh,

I know what you mean. Usually you can't see the reason in the moment when it happens, but it does all happen for a reason. When you trace back the events of your life and connect them together, somehow the bad things are always tied to the good things. As far as cubicle nation goes, it might be a temporary stop, but ultimately I was never meant to be in the corporate cage.

I do think adversity can bring out the best in us. When our back is up against the wall it's amazing the things we are capable of doing. Good luck and I suspect you will find a way.
Riley

I think the greatest of my achievements have been when my back is against the wall. While it's not always fun, every time I look back I see exactly what you're talking about. It's just hard to see it in the moment.

One thing that I have learned in life is that when things appear to be falling apart they are actually falling together.

I am self-employed and had a couple of easy and sure thing gigs literally disappear in two weeks. That is about $500 of monthly income gone.

I have a mortgage and all of the other sucky bills to pay which I intend to be rid of within 5 years btw.

Another thing that I know is that all things happen for the experience of our souls. Our souls get easily bored with routine and it is always looking for a new challenge. Embrace the opportunity and enjoy the process.

Justin,

I know what you mean. My life felt like it was falling apart 2 years ago when I graduated from business school. Yet it was during that time I built everything that you see today. As far as experience for our souls I think mine is anything but bored given the challenges that I've been going through lately. I guess it's time to really start enjoying what's coming next.

This is life just testing you. It's like a big exam to see if you can use your knowledge and experience for the next chapter in life. This is the skool of life in reality. Face it head on and scream "bring it!"

I love it Benny. It's true that this is really an exam in the SKool of Life. It's a different kind of test, one that you can't study for, but really just have to give it your all and "bring it."

Srini,
I empathize with you. For me, it would take tremendous amount of courage to deal with that kind of uncertainty--especially with a family that counts on my contributions. In times like that I have to tell myself that things don't fall apart, they fall into place--and something great will come out of it--this isn't to say that it is difficult to go through. I think that the projects you have going on right now will eventually lead you to the life that you want. I enjoy listening to your podcasts at BlogcastFM and reading The Skool of Life. I too, am trying to blog myself to the life that I want and your truth has inspired me to keep going.
Thank you for sharing this with such honesty and rawness. Every time I see an article like this, it reminds me how much people just want to connect with other people.

Hang in there. You will be ok--not that you don't already know that. :-)

Lisa,

Thanks for your comments and understanding. I can only imagine how much more challenging this kind of a situation would be with a family that counts on your contributions. For me I've been lucky that I've got so many fall back options. As far as my projects go I think they are the very thing that I didn't have before. It's good to know that people like you are in the background cheering me on :).

hi Srini-
we are All naked. -no blankets-
any amount of security is obtained simply through Being. You have freedom, true stability.

Well said Kara. I never thought of myself truly naked. I prefer sleeping in boxers and a t-shirt. HEHE.

Not having that security blanket changes so much about the current situation and at the same time gives you an opportunity to make things happen (remember your clean slate theory). I think that you will be fine and that this is just another chapter in how you became a jet-setter.
Yes you have been in a situation LIKE this before, but you were not in this exact spot. You have come so far from the last time you were technically unemployed. I think you needed Flightster to do this so that you can really stick your balls out there and make shit happen (excuse my language, but I needed it for emphasis).
I know good things are coming your way :)

Julia,

No doubt this is a clean slate with literally nothing on it. I do like the sound of become a jet setter since it means a significantly higher standard of living than the beach bum lifestyle I've been living. As far as Flightster, I think my credibility is significantly higher because of it. It's been a rough few weeks standing here on the edge of uncertainty. But, it means the world to me to have people like you in my corner. It's gonna be very weird and sad not seeing you everyday.

I don't follow your blog too closely but I do know you as a bit of a rockstar and that at one point you were unemployed working everyday on this blog (correct me if I'm wrong). I guess I just assumed you took that path and grew it, became self employed, because you ARE a rockstar. So I think maybe this guy is right. Clearing out flightster will work for you, not against. Just have faith. And/or move to SE asia where it's so much easier to live cheaply while you build up that empire. That's what I'm doing ;)

Janet,

I don't know if I'm really a rockstar, but I appreciate the compliment. I need some groupies and an entourage to qualify. There was definitely a point at which I was unemployed and working on this blog everyday and things turned around. So in some ways you could say I've been in this position before. That's part of my frustration, but at the same the asset I didn't have was this blog and the network I've built. As far as moving to Southeast Asia, believe me it's potentially in the cards as long as I can surf everyday.

Hi Srini...you probably no more about the surf conditions around the world than me. But the amount of surfers I see here in Bali....and beaches like padang padang, ulutwata, bulangen, and even little echo beach near me. I don't think you would have any trouble whatsoever indulging your passion for surfing and the ocean. You would fit right in, lol. If/when you come..lets have a beer!

Planning is important, but planning is guessing. You can never really truly know the outcome.

I think you're going to do some great things now. Cubicles will always be there. But you owe to yourself to see what you can accomplish when your back is against the wall.

Eugene,

As I've said before I think this is going to be the ultimate test to see what I'm made of. It's going to push my boundaries beyond where I'm at today.

All in or best is a thrilling feeling! Enjoy these moments as they wont last forever!

I know what you mean. There's a bit of excitement and a bit of fear. The "now I have no choice but to make it work" mindset is something that probably has been missing for too long in my endeavors.

Srini..you were bought up in conversation the other night about bloggers who are "the truth". I don't say much on your blog or come round as often as I'd like to as I'm not that great at this social media malarky. But I want you to know that whenever I read you, I feel your humanity, fallibility and humility. Things may not always be perfect or shaping up exactly as planned, but you're powerful and the way you write and the things your not to proud to share, really inspires me and no doubt others. Good luck with finding a new safety blanket..or maybe you don't need one. Ride the wave. Stacey. Ps. thanks for the advice you gave me about moving to Costa Rica...I decided on Bali..lovin it.xx

Stacey,

I came up in conversation huh? Nice to know that I'm doing something worth talking about. All joking aside, I really appreciate that you have stuck around and kept up with everything even if you don't comment regularly. I'd like to think I'm powerful even though lately I haven't felt like it. Hopefully I won't need a new safety blanket and maybe you'll see me in Bali sooner than you think. Catch some waves for me.

Love.This.
You are definitely going all in now. Yes we fall flat on our faces but it doesn't really matter. Just keep the direction you choose, the route doesn't matter.

John,

I think that's really true This is really a point of no return. With every safety blanket pulled there's no telling how this i all going to turn out. But as you said, I guess how you get there doesn't matter as long as you do.

Change comes bearing gifts. That. Is. All. And, there's no greater support system than our peers on this blogging journey; ask Marcus, and he'll inspire you over and over, Srini. You'll make it!

Jayme

I love that phrase "change comes bearing gifts." I'll have to see what the universe has in store for me. Hopefully it will involve more waves.

Jason Fonceca 33 pts

We keep bumping into each other, Jayme. :)

Change brings gifts is very similar to what I just wrote on UnlockTheDoor's latest post: http://unlockthedoor.net/pain-of-life/(Stu's blog is actually how I found this post :D)Anyway, I know I'm late, but I felt like contributing anyway -- great topic!

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we have also been stripped of the safety blankets recently. I was reading a post from Michelle at Bleedin Espresso and she mentioned your quote which just so rang true. Looking forward to getting to know you. ciao lisa